Bittersweet

Well, yesterday afternoon I had a phone call from my lawyer informing me that we have finally agreed the settlement. My initial emotion was that of elation, but this was soon replaced by a feeling of deep sadness.

Don't get me wrong, it's what I wanted, but it just upset me again that this all had to happen in the first place. I know STBEH's family probably think I'm the bitch from hell and that makes me sad, because I really love them. They've always been good to us and welcomed me into the family with open arms.

I hope that people understand that I'm doing this because I know it's the right thing for me and the kids. I know he's been talking to them and telling him his side of the story and that they probably think I'm only being "stubborn", but as we all know, there are two sides to every story and mine is no exception. Although I say a lot on this blog, there's a lot more that doesn't get said purely from the point of avoiding hurt.

Reality is, I married someone who I loved with all my heart and I would've gone to the end of the earth for. I also know that he loved/s me dearly, but unfortunately love is not enough. As sad as it might be, I still know I'm doing the right thing.

Next step is for us both to sign the final settlement agreement that my lawyer is emailing through this morning. Once that is done, the summons will be sent out and once STBEH has signed that, then I'll have to wait for a court date and that's that.

So, on that note I go into the weekend. Looks like it's going to be sunny and mild all weekend.

Madge